A Very Long Time

It’s been a very long time since I have posted anything in my blog, and few people have been nudging me to do some sort of update here….. so, here it is, a blog update!

What have I been up to in the last four or five months of absence?

Well, due to a death in the family last fall, I took a few months of ‘work leave’….. and really didn’t work on much of anything. Emotions around me at the time had me drained and de-motivated, and there was very little I could really work on anything extensively. So, really, from Oct-Nov right up until a couple weeks ago, while I was in the world, I was more or less….. out of business, except to provide customer support for those who needed. But now, I’m back!

My beloved Emmalyn Wei keeps me company and occupied in the world of Second Life. There is nobody else who I would ever want to share my Second Life with outside of her….. she’s full of fantastic ideas and great advice….. we spend almost every moment online together, for over a year now. In Second Life, a world of quick romances and infatuations, that’s quite an achievement! So, much love to my Emma! A girl unlike any other!

Re-discovering Second Life. Well, I’ve decided constantly coming up with ideas in Second Life and jumping from project to project for that little bit of inspiration isn’t always fun….. so, I gave up on the idea of ‘working’ in Second Life. Everything I do now, is done for fun and pure creative outlets….. and if I feel it’s good enough to go into the Dictatorshop, then it does! If not, then it doesn’t. I’ve even been going on little exploration trips in Second Life, randomly teleporting, discovering new lands and new people….. getting outside of the world of BDSM. It’s really quite a bit of fun! And there are some truly spectacular builds out there in Second Life you really need to take a look at.

Now, projectwise……

LockGuard V3….. is still on the table (as it has been for awhile). Quite honestly, it’s not going to be vastly different from LockGuard V2, but it will have a few requested features and will still be 100% backwards compatible with all current LockGuard items out there. There won’t be any need for designers to upgrade their old items to LockGuard V3 unless they want to add new options to their toys which will take advantage of the few new features. LockGuard V3, as with all previous releases, will be released as free and open source….. and will continue to be a top Second Life standard.

Poseball Rezzing System….. It’s no secret that I’ve been developing a poseball rezzing system which is extremely easy to setup, extremely easy to use, and 100% reliable. The Capture RP van I have on the market has been using the initial system design flawlessly for nearly half a year, without a single reported failure or need for a reset, even under heavy use in free sex areas, and that is a good sign of success. So, this project has been the primary meat on my table the past few days while I take the initial design and push it even further so it can hold much more animation data. Of course, the system I’m working on will also have innate LockGuard support, so yay to bondage furniture designers who will use the system. It’s also a sure bet that once this system is placed on the market…. it will become a) the easiest to setup, b) the single most reliable system to use, and c) operate perfectly fine under heavy/constant use in laggy sim conditions.

Chakram….. This was something I more or less created for fun, but released as a product none-the-less. A Xena-inspired chakram which can be worn on the hip, held in the hand and thrown (and it will return), or split in half and used like a pair of blades. While the chakram itself is a very simple (which is good for physics), it’s scripting and animation is anything but simple. Try it yourself, how could you not like it?

Black Widow Whip….. the younger sister whip to the Dragon’s Tail. While the Dragon’s Tail has been one of my favorite products, and probably one of my eldest (outside of a couple cages), I felt it was time that the Dragon’s Tail had some company….. and boy, does it ever! Giving this new whip a dark, braided leather design, a few new styles of whips, creating a whole new set of smooth animations, and producing new sound effects timed to each animation….. the Black Widow Whip really shines as a true sibling of the notorious Dragon’s Tail.

Paintball in BigPond….. In the Pondfield sim, I created an elaborate team game system….. a server-controlled paintball system which automatically handles players, teams, game styles (deathmatch, team play, team capture the flag), and has checks against cheating. Honestly, although this was a corporate project, it was probably one of the most fun things I had ever had the opportunity to create in Second Life. We’ve played games with a whole bunch of avatars, running around, shooting in all sorts of game styles, and the performance of the server was exceptional. It was a lot of fun to create…. and to play!

Sex Rez Animations….. My Sex Rez animation line has been quite successful, and people are loving the animations! I get quite a few messages people asking me when I’m going to create some new animations so they can add them to their beds, and the answer is….. as soon as I get my fill of scripting again and I’m in the mood to go back to animating!

Old Inventory….. I’ve been looking through some of my old Dictatorshop inventory (simpler stuff that was created in the earlier days of the Dictatorshop (like the rocking horse, spreader bars, old gags, masks, etc) and piece by piece, when I get the inclination, I’m going through and updating the scripts and re-releasing these items. Some of the items, like the older gags I’m quite likely to release as freebies, since the builds are not on par to things I release in this day and age.

What’s on the Table…..

Well, I have several components of scripts for collars and new gags (including new builds for headgear, gags, masks, etc which have yet to see the light of day). These items, right now, are low priority for me, but within the next couple of months are quite likely to find their way to the frontline as I thin out my production line and feel the urge to fit new things into the pipe. But really, I work on these things when I feel in the mood to do so, and because of that they might hit the Dictatorshop in a week or even never!

Sad, sad, sad…..

Finally, awhile ago, it came to my attention a certain BDSM designer was being just ‘more than’ critical over me…. I certainly don’t mind a critic, it’s a good thing, but when you’re comparing your own *new* nearly 1000 L product to an *over-a-year-old* 100 L low-budget product, and going out of your way to degrade it and say how superior yours is and how terrible the other person’s is…. that’s hardly a fair comparison, is it? That would be kind of like Ferrari comparing their Ferrari F40s to Ford’s old Model Ts and saying how much better they are because the model T doesn’t have the features, function, or look of a Ferrari.

So, to this designer I say…. if you want a *fair* comparison….. try comparing yourself to somebody who actually released products in your field at the same time you did for the same price you did….. like RealRestraint, LuLu, or Amethyst.

Why on earth would you choose to compare yourself to one of the oldest products from the Dictatorshop which was *intentionally* created with the most basic of features and released for someone buying on a tight budget?

I think I know the answer….. I think everyone knows the answer to that, really.

Emma is <3

Who is Emma? Emma is a funny, smart, sarcastic, witty, beautiful, sensual, caring, brazen, moody, naughty, bitchy bondage chick I met in the second week of my Big Brother experience. Her visits brightened my days while in the blue, glass prison for nearly a month….. and then when I finally escaped from Big Brother, Emma became my submissive. Since then, she’s loyally and unwaveringly kept me company in Second Life day after day….. for about nine months now.

And….. I’ll be honest, if it wasn’t for Emma I would be quite lonely in Second Life.

Yes, I have a lot of great friends in Second Life, but at the same time, I do like to keep my distance from people in general. It’s not that I don’t like them or don’t want to be near them….. it’s just that I’m a naturally, anti-social person who really prefers staying in the dark corners away from everyone else and minding my own business.

Emma is <3.

Am I great wordsmith or what? lol.

FemDom Faire

Well, it’s about the end of the 2nd day in the FemDom Faire in the Matriarch estate, in support of the House of X….. which has, so far, been incredible. A variety of events have occurred, from discussions to demos to D/s scenes, and a *fantastic* live music concert performed by ColeMarie Soleil. Hire her for your event, you won’t regret it! If I weren’t so tired and exhausted from today’s heatwave….. I would probably blog more about it.

The Island of Matriarch

About two weeks ago, the island of Matriarch hit the Second Life grid. Matriarch, my new home, the home of the Dictatorshop, and home of many friends! While I knew the general direction of what I wanted to do with an island, at first, I wasn’t sure just how to go about it…… because, once a project of that magnitude begins, it’s not easily turned from the course upon which it is set. I wanted Matriarch to be “different”, not just another lag-filled, vendor warehouse, play space that most D/s sims tend to become. That’s not to say these sims are “bad”, of course not, I visit them quite often, and many are run by friends of mine whom I adore….. I just didn’t want to go that route. I wanted to “define” myself, and define Matriarch as something different.

So, the first order of business in Matriarch was building myself and my lovely Emmalyn a place to hang out….. a place to live, and talk, and work. I’ve never really needed a home, and up until a short while ago…. I lived in a sim named Humuli, at the bottom of a 64 sqm hole dug in the ocean floor, covered and camouflaged with a couple rock. Yes…. despite the success of the Dictatorshop and the land it occupied in the course of a year…. I had never bothered to have a place to live in. I didn’t need one, I was capable of scripting underneath the ocean floor, hidden away by rocks, with at least 60m of sea between me and the nearest shore. So, anyway….. I visit Damania, and bought the gorgeous Gothik mansion offered by Damani which now serves as my home in Matriarch…. and of course, the home of Emmalyn.

The second order of business was re-establishing the Dictatorshop (yet again, but the final move)….. a very important thing to do, of course. Especially considering the Dictatorshop is what paid for the island. So, the Dictatorshop Mainstore was relocated to Matriarch, and well….. I’m still maintaining my store large store in Damsel, and as long as it pays for itself there, it will stay there. The new Matriarch location proved to be a boon to the Dictatorshop, the lack of lag, and the sim’s fast response makes shopping at the Dictatorshop in Matriarch an easy and unfrustating experience.

The third order of business was to decide what to do with the rest of the island, how to divide it up, and how to make it stand out. So, as I said, right off the bat….. I knew I didn’t want it to be any sort of play space, and I didn’t want it to have anything resembling a mall or club or offer any kind of vendor space….. because, well, that’s what *everyone* does. And while that works, and it’s probably profitable, it reduces the overall usability of the island. So, I decreed that the rest of the island would become a FemDom community…. a residential/commercial entity, a place to call home for the Dominas who choose to reside there. And oh, by commercial, I don’t mean vendors…. I mean, quality retail outlets with actual walk-in stores….. so, the land was divided up…. and the residents and businesses began moving in.

I laid down a few roads, a small park to add character, a Community Center…. and I decided that instead of allowing general purchase of the land…. I would only allow friendly, social, and intelligent Dominas to rent the parcels in Matriarch. I wrote out a fair, but enforced Covenant which ensures that people who live in Matriarch not only meet the above criteria, but will also give the sense that Matriarch is a social community, a rural haven away from the hustle and bustle of the busy sims, but not to the point where nobody ever talks to anybody. And to say, that in less than two weeks, only three plots are remaining to be rented by Dominas, speaks a lot about the quality of the Matriarch community. Much of our time in Matriarch, is actually spent talking, socializing, and networking…. rather than holing ourselves up in little private boxes never knowing who lives directly next door, and never knowing who is passing through our neighborhood. Four quality stores scatter around the Dictatorshop, sharing in its success: Red Queen, Shard’s Sadistic Creations, Netsui, and Vanilla Sux. All have said that Matriarch has been good for their businesses….. and that’s fantastic. Of course, that’s as far as I will go with allowing commercial stores to enter Matriarch, the rest is reserved for residential use. So, with the social success Matriarch has become…. I’ve decided that I will continue the FemDom residential theme and in short time create a second island, and should that one be successful, a third, a fourth, etc. While the profit margins of such islands may be smaller, the contributions they make to forming a quality community is immense.

Of course…. given that Matriarch is a Domina community, I’ve been asked if there’s a place for men in Matriarch. Well….. men are certainly allowed to visit Matriarch, and many of my good friends are men, and I’m definitely no man hater, not by any stretch of the imagination. However, Matriarch *is* a Domina community, so men are not permitted to purchase land there, or live in Matriarch unless he is living in a shadow of a Domina who will be living there as his Domme. For single, submissive men…. we’ve decided to section off “Tribute Plots” which offer these men a way to support Matriarch and our community. These plots are far more expensive than your average land space in Second Life, but we feel it will help filter out those who would just want to live around us because we’re Dominas, and they think by living in Matriarch they’ll get something in return. Of course, it doesn’t work that way. Someone who rents a “Tribute Plot” is paying Matriarch tribute, supporting our growing community, and the only thing they will get in return is to be a small, appreciated part of the community….. it doesn’t mean we’ll dominate them or collar them, or do anything more than offer a smile and a thank you for the added support. So, I don’t expect these plots to go quickly…. or soon.

Okay, that’s a bit of typing, and I’ve been up all night…. I’m going to take a nap!

Sim ….. Light ….. Tunnel ….. Bright! Dammit!

….. and I can seriously blog! Freedom!

After just about a week or so couped up in a hidden sim, building secretive things for secretive people…. I finally have a chance to come out and breath some fresh air and spend some time with a few friends, at least until I’m called again. The build is up for management review, so now, it’s just time for me to await the judgement….. ooh, the suspense, sort of. Well, I am just a “little” excited since it’s the first major contract build I’ve ever done for anyone, so there’s a lot being held over the fire, especially considering the exposure of my name and potential affect for better or worse on my reputation. Several long days, building, texturing, and then re-texturing again and again, to the management’s specifications and to just get the “right” feel for the place….. anyway, it’s done….. so yay!

Emma…. finally! I finally get to spend some quality time with my beloved Emma. I’ve missed her much in the past week, maybe spending 45 minutes to a hour with her in total. The aforementioned build had been taking an uber amount of my time….. sadly, that’s time I missed being with Emma. I can’t wait to snuggle up with my Emma and share the tales and trials of this past week.

The Dictatorshop…. Yes, I’ve ranted about it. The Dictatorshop mainstore is closed….. and for a short time (like a day), I was in a funk over it. Then, I decided…. well, feeling sorry for myself isn’t going to solve anything, so I went about doing what I had to do to get my vendors back online, first of all. I’ve been talking to a few private island owners, looking for a nice place to re-establish the Dictatorshop mainstore for the long-haul. There’s a few promising leads….. so, a new Dictatorshop store is just around the corner. I can now say, the Dictatorshop closing has had a major positive effect on my mindset and my fire for business has been flamed anew. A newer, more modern Dictatorshop will rise out of the crumbled ruins of the old…. it’ll be bigger, better, and far more competitive.

Onyx…. Some have questions and some have wondered, “Who is Onyx?”. Onyx was (and potentially still is, depending on his behavior) an investment on my part…. a quasi-friend, but like most men (sorry, guys) Onyx is stubborn, obnoxious, egotistical, and everything else I generally dislike about men….. the one thing which can’t be denied is his sheer scripting prowess. He’s no Fox Diller, but he’s pretty good….. Onyx wanted to make club stuff….. easy money he calls it…. camping chairs, games, HUDs, lights, etc. With the camping site that had set up behind my shop which was squeezing profit out of me…. big time…. and I’ll admit, I knew Onyx from previous experiences….. and he is interesting enough and smart enough to take a chance with…. so, I did. I took a risk, and I gave him enough money to buy land to start his business, told him the best way to get attention in the Search list, and how to drive traffic without using camping chairs. Anyway…. so, just after Onyx had gotten his land and started on building his store (quite frankly, Onyx sucks at building *points and laughs*)…. I was asked by a nice big R/L business if I was interested in building them a sim. So, of course…. I said yes. I was more or less sequestored away on a deserted island for a week…. while Onyx was doing whatever Onyx was doing…. which turned out to be lighting systems for clubs… it’s just a part of the club scene…. and when he first showed me what he can do he had given me a couple unique lights which he designed especially for e-Motion, I thought they would be a nice touch so I put them up without any thought. Big deal, right? A couple lights. The problem occured when one of my friends(ex) noticed Onyx’s business and flipped at me….. and I was kind of shocked…. well, mainly because….. while I was occupied with the sim, Onyx started a pure lighting business and was busy making a lot of lights…. and I mean a lot…. and my friend(ex) saw them in e-Motion and saw Onyx ’s store had a similar style of traffic generation system as e-Motion. So… that was it, bang, de-friended, no chance, no questions…. after almost a year of being friends. As soon as I found out what was going on there, I told Onyx to chill on the lights. Onyx didn’t quite get it…. but was willing to close down his light business if I would let him take over LaserTech. That would save us from having to take a “loss” on the land, so, that was done…. and when I finally went to visit Onyx’s store, he indeed kept his word and had his store closed and his products unchecked for sale with a sign up stating his intentions. Anyway…. so…. that was that. My friend still remained defriended…..

And while I liked friend dearly…. but I question…..

Did I deserve to be just tossed aside like that? No.

Did I have to ask Onyx to close his store? No.

Did Onyx have to close down his light store when asked? No.

Well, you know…. I was upset…. I wasn’t happy….. and well, a couple people said to me, maybe my friend was only my friend as long as he agreed with everything I did…..  and looking back at it now, this certainly seems to be the case, because up until now we never had any sort of “disagreement”. And even though I did everything to “right” the situation when it came to my attention…. it just didn’t matter to my friend. What does that tell you?

But now…. what about me? What do *I* get for my suffering? What do I get for having this “friend” drama thrown on top of me at the worst possible time? The Dictatorshop was being “camped” out and I was losing a lot of money. I was also concentrating on this incredible opportunity I was given…. to build a sim for a major business…. a fantastic chance to move beyond products and not having to worry about those lost sales…. this was where *all* my focus was supposed to be. Despite the Dictatorshop’s troubles….. I was elated and I was “happy”, and then I get that message…. “I’m sorry, I’m going to have to revoke your friendship.” So…. that was it, my focus was lost on what I should have been concentrating on…. and I had more to worry about than I had to be happy about and it made concentrating on the build that much more difficult and I sort of fell into a slight “what does it matter” depressive slump…..

Anyway…..

So…. for my suffering…. what did I get? What do I get? Nothing! I sacrificed myself for someone else’s business for no reason….. certainly not for a friendship…. for someone who was just concerned about his bottom line….. but you know what I’ve come to learn from this…..

“FRIENDSHIPS ARE NOT BUSINESS DEALS” EVER!

You are not friends with someone because of what they make, or what they do, or what they are…. you’re friends with someone because of who they are….. and because of the fun you have with them, and the silly things you do together. If that’s not enough….. then it wasn’t much of a friendship to begin with.

Did I make any lights?? No….. hell, until the other day the only lights I personally saw from Onyx were the ones made for e-Motion. Like I said…. I was busy with the sim build…. What Onyx might have been doing hadn’t even crossed my mind up until this whole situation blew up. We were in our own seperate little worlds.

Now…. as for me, I’m friends with all sorts of people who make products which compete directly with me…. I don’t defriend people who ARE making products which directly compete with mine, let alone those who “might” be. Hell…. I even HELP my competition with scripting problems…. but I guess that’s just me. While I care about my business, I don’t worship the “Almighty Dollar”, and I care about my friends more.

So…. Onyx…. while not fussy about it…. closed his business because he did understand friendships are not business deals.

But what was my former friend’s action right after defriending me, and me trying to figure out what happened? “Go ahead and sell the lights! I’ll devalue mine so neither of them make any money!”

I didn’t want my friend to devalue his lights…. Why? I still cared…. and well, because I had this crazy little notion maybe if I fixed it and convinced Onyx to do something else besides lights…. things would go back to normal, but…. it hasn’t. And it won’t…. ever…. because…..

I thought about it…. and I thought long and hard…. and I’ve come to the conclusion that…..

MY FRIENDSHIP IS NOT A BUSINESS DEAL.

You are either friends with me because of the fun we have doing the silly stuff.

Or we weren’t friends at all…. and it was just a “convenience”.

And while I, personally, still don’t intend on making any lights…. I’ll never be a convenience to anyone ever again…. got it?

Good!

Now, deal with it!

Byebye! *Kisses her hand and slaps her ass*

Things To Do

Well, yes….. I’ve been rather quiet this past little while, haven’t I? Between catching up on spending time with my close friends and trying to make up for lost product time while in Big Brother, I just haven’t had time to update my blog. And no, that’s not my excuse. That’s just the facts and….. wait, why do I need to explain where I’ve been? I’ll update when I want!

Emma. The lovely girl I met in Big Brother, and collared thereafter, is spectacular. From personal to business, this girl knows how to fill in any pieces of a puzzle I leave blank through my design, desire, or dumbness. She is much more than many will ever have the priviledge of knowing. I do love you, Emma.

Products. I’ve been doing updates of older products, and releasing a few new products. I’ve updated the Dragon’s Tail whip to 1.5, and released three basic whip models for those who don’t believe they need the pleasure of owning Second Life’s finest whip. Outside of that, a few gags have been released. My Breath Play Chamber has been reduced in price, and from that I split it into two seperate chambers as well….. a gas chamber and a water chamber.

Scripting. I’ve been catching up on some of my own pet projects, and at the same time…. I had to let go of all my pending custom scripting projects. I was in Big Brother for quite some time, and while Big Brother helped sales due to exposure, my productivity was being hurt by the lack of new product releases. When Big Brother ended, the sales started decling, so I need to spend more time working on product infusion which allows for a consistant cash flow rather than lump sum scripting projects. So, I’ve terminated any and all scripting services I used to offer, including requests for product modification. While, the loss of lump sums of cash is a major short term setback, the long term benefits of a consistant cash flow will more than offset present losses.

e-Motion. I’m in the process of turning my FREE Sex Play Area into something a little more attractive and appealing to the masses. It’s being renamed to e-Motion, has been given an black/purple neon make-over, and will be establishing itself as an official Free Sex and Swinger Club. I never put too much thought into the original name (as you can tell), and the build, albeit warm and cozy, was more or less a basic brick and wood room with no style or flare. e-Motion on the other hand, has attitude. While its purpose is still to act as a transparant traffic generator for the Dictatorshop, it will be doing it with a little flare.

Insomnia+More

So, it’s been a couple days….. and I have *the* worst case of insomnia ever. This is no surprise, I’ve always had bouts of insomnia which were incredibly persistant, not even Sleep Ez D can drug me into anything more than a light catnap when I have bouts of insomnia, and there are times when it hits I will go a week with no more than several hours of sleep throughout. But, blah….. I’m tired of being tired, I just want a good night sleep.

I’ve had at least a dozen IMs last night, primarily from vendors/shopkeepers, but I really didn’t want to be doing anything either. I’m trying not to do anything work-related in Second Life….. I just want to enjoy a vacation from anything which could be construed as “work”.

Of course, I’ve also had a few friends send me invites to parties or teleport requests to just hang out. Not meaning to be rude….. but, I really don’t want to be around a lot of people at this point. After spending a month being surrounded by nothing but people….. it’s kind of not somewhere I want to be right now. It’s kind of hard to say, “Sorry, I don’t want to hang out right now” to friends, especially when they’ve been supporting you and missing you for over a month. But at the same time, very few can understand how much I need time to be alone, have a little space, and just to do my own thing in-world for awhile.

Much of my time has been spent talking to Emma….. about Second Life and what not. I’ve also been lavishing her just a little bit, she might say a little too much, but I do like spoiling the girl. Many people have expressed surprised, some have expressed jealously, but all seem to be happy after several months of me being “alone” in Second Life I’ve found someone to share some personal time with.

Final Thoughts on Big Brother

Big Brother, the last days.

Well, it’s all over….. and I’m FREE…. finally.

Firstly, Madlen Flint won Big Brother…. and the island, so I congradulate her on the win. A lot of people are questioning the results, but I don’t really have any reason to do so. However, I will admit that I am *very* disappointed that Golda did not win. Between Madlen and Golda, sorry, Golda was the better player and had done and endured far more than Madlen had. Of course, Big Brother was not a contest about who did what….. but I do stand by the statement of idealism. While Madlen is nice enough and a builder, most of Madlen’s time in Big Brother consisted of being away from the keyboard and using an anti-idle HUD to clock her time with very little active time in the house, while Golda on the otherhand, spent as much time as I did (often up to 12-16 hours per day) without using any away time at all.

Secondly, I had said from the beginning I had no illusion of winning Big Brother….. and I achieved what I had set out to do in Big Brother. In fact, with all the wonderful friends I’ve made, I achieved a lot more than I had set out to do. The most interesting thing is, once I was out and travelling around…. more than one person had commented, “Hey, you’re Lillani from Big Brother!”

Thirdly, to all my friends and supporters…. I can’t thank you enough for all the support, encouragement, and condolences I’ve gotten. And yes, I’m sticking to the promise I made. Win or lose, I would have a party to celebrate my friendships! I certainly will, but first I want to take a week or so and just enjoy a little bit of seclusion and personal time to myself and my closest friends. After being 35 days in the eye of the public….. I just need a little vacation.

To summarize, the last couple days of Big Brother itself were rather interesting, or undirected, I should say. Our final task was to create a “victory party” for the winner. However, with only a few days to do it, only three housemates, and our very differing timeschedules we had very little organization or ability to do anything. This, of course, was topped off by the fact every time we asked the Big Brother crew for some sort of format for the ending we were given no answers. That, however, had been typical of Big Brother from Day 1, so it was really no surprise that things ended the way they started….. chaotic and with disorganization.

Now…. I’ve been saving the best for last.

After several months of avoiding any sort of relationships in Second Life I have collared a lovely young woman by the name of Emmalyn Wei. She is absolutely adorable….. I met her in the second week or so of Big Brother and I’ve spent many a hour talking with her through the glass of my Big Brother prison. Face to face, but always apart. As soon as I was released (and adjusting to the non-blueness of the world), I took Emmalyn about Second Life, and together we started our journey in Second Life. I, as her Mistress. She, as my submissive. She is quite special to me.

My Shop. It was *so* good to see the Dictatorshop again. As soon as they announced the winner I was out of Big Brother like a bolt and lightning and inside my Shop swooning over every brick which I dearly missed for the past 35 days. Officially, however, I’m on vacation! I’m not even going around to check on my vendors for a few days until I get settled back into the surreal world. And ideas for new products, I have them…. and plenty of them! Once my little personal hiatus is over, I’m going back into production at full steam.

And right now….. that’s all I have to say!

Happy RezDay Phaylen

And a Happy RezDay to Phaylen Fairchild!